Well I made it to another milestone... 34 weeks indicates a significant chance of Landon living if he were to be born now. His lungs are maturing and he is gaining more fat. He is about 5 pounds now! Hes getting sooo big! This past week I have washed and put away all of his clothes and bedding. His room is almost finished. We just need book shelves and the wall decor. We already have the ruf and side table, just need to put everything in place. Its weird to think that hes almost here. My life is going to be sooo different! I can only imagine though and I always am daydreaming about what it will be like. I hope hes a happy healthy baby. I hope that I am able to breastfeed and that I take good care of him. I am pretty sure I have been getting contractions. They are very irregular and dont hurt only sometimes. I also have been getting cramps in my lower abdomen and increased leg and lower back pain. This is all normal of coarse! I have been walking more and stretching a lot. I really really want to start walking as soon as I can after hes born. I dont want to just jump back into a vigorous exercise routine since it has been so long since I have really worked out. I think if I start off slow by walking, and lifting small weights I will be able to get the exercise I need. I am hoping by 6 months I am back to around 130, and I really want to look good for Baileys wedding. Thankfully we get to pick out our own dresses so I can get a super flowy one if needed! I cant wait to shop for a dress and normal clothes. I am getting tired of wearing the same things over and over, and now I feel like even my maternity clothes dont fit me right. I hope Landon is a good baby so we can go walking around the mall! I think for the first few weeks I will just stay in the house. Gosh, I am just not sure how its going to be! And I have to think of feeding him and making sure hes changed and warm and I dont want to take him out when its too cold outside.. SO many things to think about! I really hope this all comes naturally to me. I hope I can learn a lot from the birthing class and from reading everything I have read so far. My Baby 411 book is really helpful and I know the grandmas will help a lot too. Another guy on my fb posted a picture of his son and it just made me want Landon to be here even more. I am still anticipating the day I go into labor. I just wonder what it will be like! I havent packed my bag yet but thats something I will probably do this coming week, just to be prepared. Landon is still breeched so as of now its looking like a c-section unless he turns. He still has time to turn but I guess we will just have to see! People keep asking whether I want natural or c section, and honestly I just want what is best for him. There are pros and cons to both. C-section take a longer time to heal and you dont get to see the baby right after, you have to wait a while. Natural is more stressful during delivery process but easier to heal and no scar on your belly. It doesnt matter to me, either way I am really scared and nervous! I know I will have a lot of people there to support me and comfort me. I just hope everything goes smoothly but I am always wondering "what if..". I just need to stop worrying!
In other news, me and Taylor have been talking a lot about how we want to raise Landon (and our other kids). We are on the same page on pretty much everything. We have both agreed that we want to be an open and honest family, without being too sheltered or too easy going. I am really glad he and I are able to talk about a lot of things together and I am even more glad that we can agree on everything. Our relationship has also been really good. We have had moments of disagreements but we are able to work things out without yelling or fighting. Its refreshing to have a relationship where there is respect, good communication, honesty and trust. I am so thankful for that!
Anyway it is the last day of 2011!!!!! I cannot believe this year has gone by so fast. I know I say that about every year. I just cant believe all that has happened this year. It has been crazy but good and humbling. I look forward to what 2012 has to bring, especially my baby boy. I cannot believe I am going to be a mom! I am not sure if it has really sunk in yet. Like I know it and believe it but my mind hasnt quite wrapped itself around it. I know when hes here it will definitely sink in!! His parents are in for the New year and I think we all might go out tonight. Its kind of our last night to go out without Landon. I think it will be fun and we get to dress up.
The next couple of weeks are going to be crazy. Landon is on my mind all of the time. I will start going to the doctor every week and now its just about waiting for his arrival!!! I hope he comes in January! I dont wanna wait much longer! And I am really big, as you can tell from the pictures! Thankfully I dont have stretch marks but I dont want to get bigger... Its weird having such a big belly and I cant wait to lose the weight! Anyway, here are my 34 week pictures. I will write next year :)
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