Well today I am 33 weeks and 2 days.. And its getting closer and closer til delivery day! My cousin Caty had her baby about a week ago and this girl from my high school had her baby 2 days ago and I am sooo jelous! I cant wait!!! Yesterday my dad came in and we got my rocking chair. Its really nice and looks awesome in the room. Mom will come in tomorrow and we will get the rug and curtains, so its all coming together! And the more it comes together the harder it is to wait! They changed my birhting class to January 8th so I am thinking once I get that done I am ready for baby! I was sitting in the rocking chair last night just thinking how crazy it is that I am going to be a mom. I am going to have to care and nurture him, and teach him things and discipline him... I will tuck him in at night and read him bedtime stories. I know what its like to do that for other peoples kids, even my little brother, but its weird to think that this child is mine. I will have a child, for the rest of my life, I will be someones mother. Its hard to wrap my mind around that. I wonder what hes going to be like, and what I am going to be like as a mom. I hope I am a good mom, who is patient and gentle and loving and understanding. We have all of this baby stuff here like the carseat, bouncer, rocking chair, bed, clothes... and we are going to be using it in a few weeks. We will have a baby to put in the car seat and who will wear all the cute clothes. It just seems empty right now. This brand new, painted room, filled with stuff for Landon. What is it going to be like when Landon fills our home and our hearts?
So other than Landon being on my mind 24/7, I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping. My hip flexors and groin cramp up and so do my legs and calves. I get up to go to the bathroom every 2 hours and each time I get back in bed I switch the side that I was laying on. The boppy pillow does help but I have just been so uncomfortable. I was reading the baby books last night and it said that dryness in the eyes is common... and guess what I have? DRY EYES! I need to go to the eye doctor but I dont want to until I give birth because supposedly your eyes change while your pregnant and I dont want to get the wrong prescription. Landons kicks and movements continue to get stronger. Sometimes it hurts. I do like to feel him kick though and seeing my entire belly shift is still really wild. Its weird to think how he is forming right now. The main thing he needs before he is born is lung deelopment, more brain development and fat storage. Everything else is in place, now its just getting those last few maturities before hes ready to see the world! I was also reading about when it is ok to take your newborn out of the house and some people say they have taken babies out by 2-3 days! That just seems so soon! I was thinking his first real outting would be for his first doctor appt at 2 weeks... Maybe I am already being overprotective.. I would like to go on walks and stuff but its also going to be cold still when hes born. Some people even traveled with their babies at only a few weeks old. I guess we will have to see how he is. I hope hes a good baby and lets me travel and go places with him. I think my mom and Jamie are going to switch off weeks to help when hes here. I dont really know what all I will need help with yet... Everything is so new to me. I think I just want supervision to make sure I am doing everything okay. I am scared I am not going to clean his circumcision right or his umbilliacal cord... I dont know if I spelt either of those words correctly. I dont want him to get infected and then it be my fault. There is just so much to think and worry about. I guess all I can do is my best and learn as much as possible. I have really good books that help me out and I know my mom and Jamie will help. Also, I hope this pediatrician I am going to meet is good too. She seems like she will be.
So today is Christmas Eve and I have a lot to do! I am about to start the chili for dinner, then I want to make the cheesecake and cut up the fruit for tomorrow, then clean, then church, then dinner, then go see lights! Busy but fun day. Its definitely different being here for Christmas. I am glad that my mom will be here tomorrow though. I know she will help me cook and stuff and I am excited to hang out with her for a few days. Taylors parents will be here for New Years so I want to try to find something fun we can do. So far it has been relaxing and not having school or work has been awesome! I am hoping I can work some once Landon is here... just do some work from home to make some extra cash. No use just sitting around if I have time. I wish I could take some of my classes online too. That would help tremendously! But oh well, I shouldnt overdo myself. Hopefully I can take classes in the summer. Tori might be here in the summer so she could babysit, possibly. Its hard not being able to plan everything out. This has been the biggest lesson is not planning and just trusting everything will work out. I am such a planner and like everything to go a specific way but that doesnt quite wotk with a newborn! God sure is funny sometimes!
Anyway, I should get started on todays duties... Cant wait til Landon is here!!!
Love,
The Albritton Family
Baby Room with the rocker!
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