Well, I am almost done with my first trimester! Just a couple more weeks! SOOOOO crazyy...! Anyway, last week sucked and was probably the worst week overall. I was nauseous and tired mostly all day and then Friday I had the worst migraine headache that lasted 8 hours! Taylor and I went to dinner and a movie and I wanted to stay up for it so I did and my head was killing me the whole time. It was also my first time to take medicine (ancetametaphin- I know its spelled wrong). It didnt help. Today I am feeling better though, just tired. Actually, just know that I am always tired because its annoying saying that I am tired all the time. I feel like a couch potato too. I watch so much TV now its ridiculous. This past Saturday, Taylor had a show in Austin so we drove up there. It was fun but I was tired (go figure). We went to 6th street after and I got hit on by some random drunk guy and told him I was pregnany LOL He gave Taylor a high five and asked when it was due. So, yes, I was pregnant on 6th street! Haha... but when I am really showing I wont go. That seems trashy.
Anyway, Taylor and I are still doing really well. We have talked about marriage and everything. Its going to be complicated if we are living together, unmarried and with a child. I spoke to Erica and Jay and they just want me to be right with God. I understand completely where they are coming from but I just dont know whats "right". I want to do what is right for me, Taylor and the baby no matter what other people think. Its just really hard making these tough decisions. On top of that, I wouldnt just move in with some guy under normal circumstances. We are going to be a family so it seems better to move in and try to make it work. Or is that stupid sounding? Obviously it would be ideal to have gotten married first and then had a baby to avoid this type of complication but since that is not the case and everything is backwards, I just have to work with what I have and what I know and feel is best for my family now. And Taylor and I do plan on getting married. We would if we had more time to plan and get ready before the baby but since we dont, we have to wait. Probably in May is what we are thinking. Baby will be a few months, and Taylor will have graduated.. Ahh its scary to say that. My life is all full of grown up things now. I still feel like and sometimes still want to be a kid. But my actions led to a baby so I have to compensate for that. I am excited. My mom and I were looking at baby stuff a few weeks ago and I am excited to know the gender and start preparing. I have a hunch that its going to be a boy, just because I want a girl. Either way I will love him or her to death!!! This is still so crazy and sometimes surreal to me. My next ultrasound is Aug 2 and I just cant wait. If i had my own machine, Id be looking at my baby every day.
Other than that, everything is going really well. Caroline was even nice to me this weekend and invited me and Taylor to go to the lake with her and her boyfriend. Things couldnt be better... which is scary. Everyone is warming up and getting excited about my pregnancy now. I just hope everything stays good and that me and Tay are able to deal with our future problems healthily and still committed to each other. My worst fear is that we abandon each other which seems easy to do without marriage in the picture quite yet. But I cant focus on bad things that might happen, I can only focus on good things that are happening and right now they outweigh my worries.
Baby is a whopping 2 inches!! Growing so fast!! Cant want to see him/her in 2 weeks!
Love, Alyssa and Poppysicle
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