Well I am almost in the double digits! I will be 10 weeks on thursday. Today was not a good day... I was nauseous and tired and just didnt feel well. I dont really know how to describe how I felt. I wanted Taylor to understand but its not a regular nauseous feeling or just tired; it's like a weird sick to my stomach, not hungry, tired, head queasy feeling. Anyway thats what I felt like today. So I did my Weekend at Pathways this past weekend.. It was interesting and emotionally draining but turned out really good. I want Taylor to go but he's still not sure. And I am wondering if we should go to the parenting one even though we arent technically parents yet.Hopefully we will get some clarity on that. I think we are going to start looking for houses soon and move in in August. Weird. I could barely live with Amanda, I am not sure how this is going to work but I hope it does. I know it will be difficult but we have to at least try to make it work. I feel like this is not how I pictured my life to be or even a relationship or family. But have to make the best decisions I know how to make. Think logically but feel tremendously. I really missed Taylor this weekend. I wonder how its going to be when we will together. Right now he goes to his friends apt and will play video games and jam out... Can he still do that if we are living together? Right now it doesnt bother me because he has his place and I have mine. Its just going to be a whole new dynamic, and a way different lifestyle. I still want time for my friends and I know he does too. And we wont be married.. so I just dont know where to put boundaries. We will be staying the night every night together and I dont want to get tired of each other.
BAHHHHH I just hope everything works out!!!! Prayers would be awesome now :)
Another note, baby is doing really well. About an inch and a half now and I wish I could have an ultrasound every week!! I wanna see him/her all the time because I cant feel it yet. SoOoOo I will go again August 2nd and my mom and sister want to come.
Thats it!
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